a lesson learned........

He walked into my life just like the first rain after 3 months of heat...spreading the sweet smell and sigh of relief. We knew each other since a long time (2 months to be precise) but we never exchanged words.It was seldom we commented on each others profile or dp or something.But then something happend and things changed we became friends and then best friends. He knew everything about me and i did too(i think) for every step i took i told him. He was more than a best friend,he was a buddy,a guy i could share my innermost feelings,cry over almost nothing,crib when i want attention,flirt etc.

Soon i was addicted to him, My day started with a good morning message and was with him the whole day (not literally) it was as if my life revolved around him and  everything he did. Somewhere i knew just like the earlier experiences he is soon gonna leave me. Despite of dreading at that thought i really wasnt preparing myself for it because i thought he was different. People thought i was crushing on him or was falling for him even he did thinklike that but no it wasnt the case i never perceived  him in that sense. I love him but not as a girlfriend love but as a best buddy love.

He got so busy with his works and friend that he ignored me. I am not used to this behavior from him so it hurted me a lot.And just to grab his attention i kept in messaging him or writing on his wall.Hoping i get my friend back but in this process it was doing nothing but damaging the situation because of my constant shitty messages he got disturbed and got irritated so much that he indirectly said i will delete you off. This was as good as hitting below the belt reaction for me.  So i've decided to not disturb him at all. and folllow that phrase ' if you love something  and you really want it set it free if it comes back to you its yours and if it doesnt it was never yours'

I know he is reading this and he might even call me and scream at me saying " what made you write this ? you know i will never do that" but i need to tell him you are really important for me!

the new me........really?

Yesterday when i was just sitting by myself i just put a thought to myself have i really changed? and somewhere i knew what the answer was. Currently i am in the biggest situation of my life where my family thinks i am always into my friends and my friends think the other way round.My own bestie who used to say we will be bffff is now fighting with me in the bitchiest way.My new friends are also losing touch with me. it feels as if i have totally alienated myself from social organisation.And to be honest i have no clue why am i doing this,.. two years ago i was the biggest tomboy and a chatterbox you could come across i used to read books like crazy had awsome knowledge about almost everything, people used to adore me for what i was bindass didnt care a damn  abt anything didnt know how to dress up too. back then i didnt even know how to use make up..but then someone entered my life that someone became my priority. He used to be everything for me i lost touch with all that i was i started bothering abt looks and all. Totally forgot my friend existed too. But all this was new to me.No one knew that and they started ignoring me. Before i could realize i had walked a long way ahead so i decided to move on with the situation but things really didnt work out well.  My new friends too are busy with themselves and their own group i currently have only 2  3am friends anahita and sicky akshay. and this is to them as well my old friends and family guys i love you ppl a lot  

10th...

yayyyyyaaayyyaayyyy this is my 10th post !!! :* :*

SHAKESPEARE IN LOVE!!

 Yesterday i was watching the movie 'Shakespeare in love' and i realized the man who created Romeo and Juilet must be one heck of a romantic man and also he must've got some sorta inspiration to write this. I picked up a quote and asked all my friends to actuallu put it in modern  words the quote 'SHALL I COMPARE THEE TO A SUMMER'S DAY...AS THOU ART SO TEMPTESS' and here are the following responses
sicky: shall i compare u to a summer coz ur so tempting.
sachin: shall i compare to a summer freshness you r like a dew drop...something somthing yada yada yada(cmon i cnt remember all of it) rolled into one (this was the 3rd best)
heet: kya samjha nahi
durjoy:didnt reply so i think hedidnt get it too.
ash: is it you or is the weather too hot.( the best)
.me:you are so beautiful that only a summer's morning can stand the comparison.
which is the best according to you email me.also what will u translate it to!
any ways HAPPY DIWALI GUYS

thats it

Now that i realized that no one is actually interested in my blog even after telling them to check it out i am actually going to use the freedom to express my self (which i could've done earlier but the thought didnt enter my head)  first of all  i am going to abuse my best friend forver and also my co author(who does no work at all) Aksahy Bhanawat (if you are reading this GTH) ok why am i doing it? because apparantly sicky(thats his nickname) and I have decided to write a book (yes its true DO NOT LAUGH) and its been one month and we havent even started!!! (if you think and its not gonna proceed fuck u) reason: mr pea brain sicky is busy......urrrggg

love......??

People say that some times you just fall out of love? i dont understand how ? how can you just fall out of love..because love isnt a game where you begin at one point and end it at another.its a feeling hard to define its an act of serendipity..some times you dont even know you are in love with the person it never clicks but the ignorance or absence of that person  proves it! lemme tell you a story about a friend...lets name her Disha .Disha was a total tomboy who never gave a shit about the world cars and football was more or less her world.she was type of girl who seldom had any enemies loved by everybody around her with her a  you could talk anything and everything.she was a 3am buddy to everyone.solved everybody's problems. that always cheerful and never  gloomy nobody noticed the real person behind that facade.however one guy really noticed it and he won her heart  Aman was his name.

Aman was a guy who if described would be just too good to be true  she was his dream or rather he was her dream.disha's friends always looked at aman with askance..because he was just perfect.though disha was a sonsy compared to him